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Just how I think.

When I was a child I took a long time to start speaking. I had curly blonde hair and my parents called me Harpo. (after the mute Marx Brother).  When I first learned how to write I wrote from the bottom right to the top left.  I hated sand on my hands, so beach visits were a nightmare, any mess on my hands caused distress.  I didn't make friends easily, I struggled with relationships and how to talk to others.  I have nobody I would call a close friend, very few people who I could open up to emotionally.  I preferred things to people or relationships.  As a teen, I struggled to date, I felt ill and queasy in the presence, or at the thought of a relationship.  Between the ages of 14 through to early 30s, I struggled to eat in public, extreme anxiety meant many a meal out would result in being sick. Stress worsened this phenomenon.  Things are either good or they're shit.  My old manager told me I saw the world as 50% black, 50% white and that ...